i am just me

11:46 PM

i think the 10pm channel u show is a very nice show. i just caught an episode today n i am in love with it! i shall go you-tubing soon to watch the episodes i miss!hahaha
everyone is jio-ing for kbox. thk its too many to go?but i really miss ktv-ing. but i am so so broke! i need my job..

i got my wordpress blog up. wonder when i shld switch. it seems like i dun blog much now..

i miss my dear

5:27 PM

life have been great since exams ended! n i realised i haven give myself enough rest at home ever since exams ended. so today is my rest day =).

battle with exams officially ended on 24th may at 5.30p.m. watching movie pirates was the first reward i given myself. friday was a long day out. first met eunice,zh, kang,fio n joy to kelly services. sad to say, they did not give me the confirmation of the job, n they have not call me for the next job interview =(. n on that day my slippers broke AGAIN. hahaha. i thk there must be smth wrong with my walking style tt my slippers always break. lunch n shop at parkway w frens before heading to geylang for durian dinner. the durian isnt as great as i tot. whole day of walking in my pairs of new shoes gave me terrible blisters!

sat morn was a trip down to katong convent for some family fun fair they haf. saw campus superstar theresa, well.. looks normal. guess wat??! my mei's form teacher is actually a teacher from changkat!.. small world. pretty pai seh so bought her bee hoon ( n it taste like salt=X).
spent a lovely afternoon blading with jay behind my house. its all thanks to him, that i know how to cycle n blade.=)

sun was out with sec school frens. great morning we haf, but afternoon smth bad happened. shall not go into details. hope everything is fine now!

and its shopping on mon n tues with ma ,sis n aunt! n ya, thanks buddy for passing me my student card on mon!=). .meet up with dear again on tues. just cherish all the time spent with him.

he is out of s'pore now! he left 2 days earlier than me. i leaving for hk+ china tmr! n it will be shopping again ( not using my $.lol).

n yes! i drove just now. have not drive ever since my 'mini accident' the previous time. haha.. driving is so fun ( for now i guess).hehehe

wat a long entry. it has been quite some time tt i go into so much details wat i did daily. but this post is here cos i m really bored now! hehehe....

to all those having holidays - enjoy ur holidayS!!!

missing u

1:33 AM

wasnt really updated on news these days. was reading the lastest few entries of a teacher's blog and learnt about a news of a 8 yr old kid being knock down by a lorry in simei. this kid happens to a friend of my teacher's child.reading her post got me pretty upset. that kid is just 8 yrs old, n he was run over twice.

anyway, finally my battle with exams is over! wasnt really happy with my paper today, but i shld be glad that its over =). no point pondering over it. just wait for the results! n yes, i watched pirates today. the movie is so long! near to 3 hrs. i almost rotted. haha!

i've got a job! hahaha. fast right. n i need to sign documents tmr at 10.so i shld be sleeping SOON!

nitez

10:37 PM

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haha

HELLO!

9:06 PM

back to blog again! =)

went for dental appointment early this morning n witnessed quite a number of "good" things.

firstly, it was at pp, where i saw this really old couple( at least 70 yrs old?). the husband was holding on to the wife, taking good care of her. not really sure how to describe the whole thing, but its just a really warming scene. aww.. so sweet.

second, it was on the bus. at this traffic junction near VJC, there was a traffic accident. a taxi and car crash. thk the impact was big, cos the car was dented, n i guess the driver had slight injuries cos i THINK i saw abit of blood stains on his shirt, and he carries a little kid in his hand.anyway, of cos this isnt a good thing, the good thing was the bus uncle actually bothered to call in to some radio station i believe, to report the accident cos it causes bad traffic. he called with loud speaker mode so everyone heard the conversation. this bus uncle is really nice, when he passes by a bus stop and realise tt the person there didnt notice the upcoming bus, he will horn to check if the person want to tk the bus.

thirdly there was this really nice lady on bus who alerted someone abt the stuff she dropped. i shall not go into details. but i am glad that there are nice people ard =) .

met up with dear for a short while in the afternoon. never see him for quite long le due to the battle with exams.(miss ya!) and the battle is still on! one last paper, banking n finance on next thurs! 7 more days of study! i supposed to haf 10 days! but i slacked for 3 days lejust cant put myself into study mode aft the maths paper.haf been you-tubing for the past 2 days ( thanks to my dearest da jie n xiao mei). 2 days ago was watching this movie named - angel, i love u - with my mei,pretty touching, loving and nice show. ytd was watching -a step to the past (xun qin ji)- with my jie. haha!! n now.. is left with 7 days!pray hard for me.

arghhh.. exams is driving me nuts. i starting to lost track of days. wat day is it today?

so much love
yet a distance so far

6:38 PM

" Hi,

Thank you for your email. Scientific calculators are not permitted for any of the exams being sat this year. The Examiner's know this and will ensure that the questions they set can be answered with the help of a basic calculator. Please let me know if I can be of further assistance.

With kind regards,
Catherine
Catherine LesterLSE External Study "

THIS IS HELL!! scientific calculator is not allowed in exams this year! meaning the casio calculator that accompanied me for exams for years is not allowed in exams! i didnt want to believe at first but many of my frens have check and confirmed. i thk stats 2 paper will be horrible without my casio calculator. argghhh.. what a new rule this year. peeps, rmb to bring along a 'ah pek' calculator for exam! all the best!! we will be free in less than a month!

4:11 PM

got the following from ade's blog=) :

5 tips for avoiding another hurtful relationship
By Karen Sherman, Ph.D.

So you've finally gotten past the old relationship, licked your wounds, and sworn you've learned your lessons. You've starting dating again and you're even taking it slowly. Though you've healed, the hurt from the past is still vivid in your memory.
And then, suddenly, there he or she is! There's just something about this person that feels right. For all the people you've been going out with, this person seems different -- there's a comfort level you don't experience with the others. And so, you start to shun the others and make a more definitive commitment to this person.

And you're happy. Yes, this could be "the one"!

But then, a few months into the relationship, you start to realize that though your new partner seemed different from your last one, he/she really isn't different at all. The more you get to know the person, the more you recognize the same underlying traits. Maybe he/she isn't generous with money or not emotionally expressive or makes unilateral decisions. And you ask yourself, "How could this happen again?" Patterns from the past

The truth is, we tend to be drawn to the same types over and over again. That's because they remind us of someone in our family of origin, which accounts for the initial feeling of comfort.

Generally, there's an unresolved issue you're hoping to resolve in the relationship. Please note that all of this is happening at a sub-awareness level.

Here are some examples: Let's say you had a very strict upbringing. You might be attracted to someone who's controlling, so you can replay this earlier issue and no longer feel restricted. Or, if you had a parent who was emotionally shut down, you might be drawn to someone who gets upset when you're emotional, so you can rework feeling comfortable when you do express your feelings.

I believe that part of the reason this happens is because we have learned certain patterns in our childhood to help us adapt to our family of origin -- these are our survival tools. If they work -- that is, we feel we are loved by our parents -- we continue to use them. Using the examples above, we become compliant to a controlling father or try to hide our feelings from a non-expressive mother.

And, we continue to do them, without thinking. We start to function mindlessly, as if we are on "automatic pilot.

" How to avoid "dating déjà vu"

So, how can you stop this pattern? The key is awareness. Here are five tips to help you steer clear of another hurtful relationship:
1. Be self-observant. Ask yourself, after you've gotten to know someone, what are the traits in them that you were initially drawn to? It's likely that these are the very aspects of the person that bother you -- ones that you say you don't want in another relationship.
2. Be analytical. What issues from your childhood does this person reflect?
3. Consider doing some personal work. By working on whatever the unresolved issue is for you, it will no longer need as much attention through someone else.
4. Be aware. Everything you want to know about someone is there right in the beginning. You just have to pay close attention and not be blinded by your emotions. That's why your friends can see a trait that you might not.
5. Work it through. Is the overall relationship a good one? Remember that everyone has issues. If each of you learns to accept and respect the issues of the other person, the relationship can be quite healing for both of you.

i came across this question. since 被爱是幸福的，will you leave someone u love for the one who love you? this will just be so unfair for the one who truely love you!

anyway i watched spiderman! my exam is on wed n yet i still went for movie! *shake head*. pretty nice n sad show. =(

alright. back to econs now~

there are just too many reasons behind too many things

10:39 PM

two beautiful love songs :

曹格- 你是我的宝贝

我一直在寻找
可爱的微笑
今天终于让我找到
我希望你知道
我不是开玩笑
今天才发现了你的好
你有特别的味道
让我神魂颠倒
我想我一定是中了招
呜美丽在燃烧
我快控制不了
wu..........
其实我不错
可以考虑我
什么都可以
just don't say no
我们手牵手
沙滩走一走
只要跟你在一起就足够

希望你能当我宝贝
你一定不会后悔
我只有一个要求
就是要对你好
永远不让你流泪
永远都不让你心碎
希望你相信我
我们在一起好吗

只要你相信我

我可以 - Cai ming you

情
没有抵制的心
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨
下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景
有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

11:01 PM

i came across the following while blog-hopping :

A man was walkin along a beach when he stumbled upon an old lamp.He picked it up and rubbed it, and out POPped a genie.

The genie said, "you released mi from the lamp, im gettin a little sick of these wishes so you can forget abt 3... you'll onli get 1 wish."

The man tot abt it for awhile and said, "i've always wanted to go to Hawaii, but i m scared to fly. Could you build mi a bridge to Hawaii so i can drive over there to visit?"

The genie lauffed and said, "tat's impossible! how would the supports ever reach the bottom of the Pacific? No, tink of another wish."

So, the man tot hard and finally said, "i've been married and divorced 4 times. my wives said tat i dun care and i'm insensitive.""So, i wish tat i could understand women, know how they feel inside. Know why they're cryin, know wat they realli wan when they sae 'nth', know how to make them truly happie."

the genie said, "do you wan tat bridge to be 2 lanes or 4?"

haha. i have to admit this, but char bo are difficult to understand, cos i dun understand myself sometimes either. so guys, jia you k! lolx.. (understand me more too my dear! winks*)

i have to praise my blog-hopping skills. cos i manage to link n link n found many friends' blog.hahaha

exam is less than a week away! out to study agn tmr!

4:11 PM

i just cant concentrate studying! wonder if its the weather or myself, i m feeling pretty cold.have been sneezing the whole afternoon,n i haf lost count of the amount of tissue i used! thk i getting a sore throat soon.i feel heat in my throat. omg... sounds like i getting sick!! better not.. cos my exam is starting next week! i better take less heaty stuff.. but i just took some chocolate and they taste so yummy! * sneeze*

i HAVE TO CONCENTRATE ON MY WORK!

12:28 AM

the following seems true :

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

You are an emotional and sensitive person. You are inclined to delight and wallow in all things that give pleasure to your senses but nevertheless your tastes are refined and you reject anything that is indecent or vulgar.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification?

You are completely worn out and you are not in the mood for any further demands on your resources. The situation - such as it is - has rendered you quite helpless, unable to continue the mental battle that you have been pursuing for some considerable time. Enough is enough. All you would like to do now would be to have some time for yourself, to find a peaceful situation where you can recuperate in your own time.

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