a photo was found in my granny's wallet and passed to me today. was told that she kept it aft she stopped taking care of me aft i enter secondary school. hearing this makes me even sadder. yesterday was the last day we get to see her. to me, it looks like she is just sleeping, just like how she used to sleep beside me - the exact expression ,n she could be up anytime talking to me. i still cant believe she is gone. my mind is filled with memories of her, of how she taken so good care of me.how i hope the funeral is a few days more, so that her body is with us longer.
i miss prawn mee suddenly, tts always my reward from her when i score for my spelling.
slpt really early last night.at 10pm!never so early b4..never really have a good rest for a few days. only slpt for an hr plus on sat nite, n luckily managed to stay awake on sunday to send her off n settle many other things. it was drizzling when we sent her.. wonder its a good or bad thing. tmr is her 7th day of death, she is suppose to be 'back'. i so much wanted to see her, but i am scared too. do appear in my dream granny.
my uncle can 'see' ghost, some things heard these days are really errie. that day during the ritual, we were even shown by the priest the footprints of my granny.many times i wonder if such things are true,but it seems so real. . aunt was blaming herself today. she said she shouldnt haf send granny to hospital since she dun want to.its qing ming, spirits in the hospital are alot, n thus they 'pull' my granny away. how sad. or at least if granny was at home, she would be happier dying at home than hospital, but its really not her fault.granny case was suppose to be hospitalise i thk.its not her fault,no one knows she will be gone so fast. no one knows.if i did , i would have gone down to see her when she last called n talked to me..........i shld have. hai.. shall say no more
for now.. there is still one more family matter unsettled. pray hard for me, that my persuding power is strong. cos i dun wan to lose anyone again.
anyway thanks to all for ur tag,sms n concern. i truely appreciate it. for now.. i gona get bck to study. mug real hard. never study for a few days le...vex n stressss
