VERY PISSED now! argghh... 6 hrs passed n i m still VERY angry with myself. i have got a good test route,good tester..but.. i was bad!!!!!

who in the world is so stupid that can deduct 40 marks for a driving test? haha. that person is me! so idiot! wat is there to gan chiong abt man.at my very first station, i already screwed up! direction changing.. easiest station, i actually did smth wrong n n dint position the car straight,making the going out difficult, having to make additional reverse action to go out.. i did it..manage to go out.. but den my gan chiong took over me....

i did all the mistakes one can do.i did things i nv do during practice.. i mount kerb, strike kerb, knock pole down, nv safety check...blah blah blah. i knew all my mistakes even b4 the end of test! my speed was too fast in circuit today.. i dint control my clutch well... who in the world will do the wrong thing knowing it is wrong. well its me again... i was so sian with myself that when turn into the center i went to the wrong lane.

uncle francis told me that he got confident in me. i was in fact quite confident that i would pass. n even had the aim of wanting to prove to pple that gals can pass first time too! haha.. but my dream is gone.francis is such a good instructor.. he is a really nice person. i disappointed him. i felt so disappointed too. .haha. guess my expectation is too high also. tts y jus a mistake at my first station i already sian.hai... thk i expect too much from myself. tts y so angry n disappointed. sianzzzzzz

i need some 'calming pills'...